Rambling about useless crap since 1988.
Getting back in the swing of things
Well, I suppose I should finally get this blogging business done with, huh? I’ve been meaning to blog for quite a while, but I’ve simply just not known what to say.
So, Uni’s been going for the last four weeks. I’m enjoying the courses, but goodness, there is SO much work to do. I have two essays due next Thursday, and a test on Friday. I’m incredibly stressed, but I’m getting there. I’m doing a lot of genetics and evolution work this semester, which I’m super interested in, so at least I’m enjoying keeping up with the work.
I’ve been kind of sick lately too. I’ve had a cold the past week, and have also had some major pains in my abdomen for a week and a bit, which the doctor thinks is an issue with my bowel. It’d be nice if my body could start working like it’s supposed to!
In other health news, I’m back on the diet and trying really hard. I’m down to about 72kg, which is a drop of a little over 8kgs. I have at least another 12 to go. I started back up at the gym today, and I’m glad I did because I enjoyed it incredibly. I felt so good afterwards! I’ve also been doing a lot of Wii Fit lately. It’s helping so much with my flexibility: I can touch my toes now! :D
It’s my birthday next Thursday. I’m kind of freaking out a little bit. I’m turning 20, and it’s making me feel really old. Even though I’m not old in the slightest, it’s making me feel like I’ve missed something. I guess this past year has been so full of stress that I haven’t really had time to actually enjoy being 19. Hah, it sounds ridiculous but it feels like i’ve missed so much of this year!
I hope I don’t leave so much time between blogging next time. I suck at this.
And now, to keep track of things:
-Weight: 72ish kg
-Lost: 8kg
-Exercise: Wii Fit: 50 minutes, Gym: 45 minutes.
Ode to my Bitches
I struggle with people. It’s pretty common knowledge. I’m incredibly shy when it comes to meeting new people, introducing myself, holding a conversation. I’m always second guessing myself, and always worried about what the other person is thinking.
That being said, I don’t make friendships easily.
Elyse, Chenoa,Chrissy and Gail: You girls mean the world to me. I’m so glad I have you all, because without you, I’d be pretty fucking lonely. I don’t have many friends in New Zealand, and I would probably go insane from loneliness if I didn’t have you girls to talk to each day.
I’d also like to thank Kelley, Caitlin and Lisa too.
Thank you, girls, for making my days a little easier. Thank you for giving me something to look forward to each day.
Thank you
So, it certainly appears that I went missing in action. It certainly feels that way. To be perfectly honest, I’m struggling to think of what to say.
I’ll give you the short version though: Mum’s much better now. The crazy seems to have come and gone as if overnight. I’m really glad that she’s better though. It may sound silly, but seeing her like she was… It really made me realise how much I would miss her if she was gone. I’ve never had a great relationship with my mum, so it was surprising at how difficult it was seeing her in that position.
I just wanted to take the time to thank everyone who sent their well wishes and love. I’m being completely honest when I say that it kept me going… Especially when she was in the actual psychiatric ward. If anything, your support kept me from going insane.
I’ve been back from Sydney for two weeks now. It seems like I never left, which sounds just plain silly. I love that no matter how long I’m gone, I still fit right in at uni, at James’s house, with my friends here… It feels like I have two homes.
As you can probably see, I’ve changed the theme. As much as I loved Reese’s theme, I felt that it was finally time for a change. I’m hoping this theme will be easy to work with when I finally incorporate my photography and, possibly, writing.
I’ll post again soon, I promise. I just need to find the words. They’re in there somewhere.
Stress and Sadness
It’s been a busy and stressful couple of days.
I’ve had my family here since Saturday, including my aunt, the mother of Charlotte, who passed away, and her husband, my Nana, my cousins, including Emma, who’s one and GORGEOUS.
Even though it was so sad and stressful, it really made me realise just how much I miss being here in Sydney and seeing my family. They’re such a big part of my life and I miss them terribly when I’m away.
Charlotte’s funeral is suggested to be next Monday or Tuesday. We’re still not entirely sure what’s going on yet. It’s all a debacle, to be perfectly honest. Andy, Charlotte’s father, has asked my dad to give the Eulogy at the funeral, which is a nice thing for Andy to have asked. I can’t even imagine what he’s going through. No parent should have to bury their own child.
… Blah. Sadness aside, we’re coping. Dad and I took two trips to the airport today, once to drop off my Uncle Robert, and the second time to drop my Nana off with my other Aunt and Uncle, who were driving her back home after dropping my cousin off at the airport (She’s heading to Europe for about a month. Lucky!)
Dad and I went to do a bit of shopping after we were done at the airport. We got a lot of techy stuff: We replaced the old computer with a new laptop, bought a serious subwoofer set of speakers for the iPods, got dad an iPod nano (his mini’s getting a bit outdated), and got a few other things we’ve needed to pick up for a while. It was good to get out of the house for a bit.
I’ll be going to the local pub with some friends on Wednesday night for a trivia night. It’ll be good to get out with the girls and get my drink on for a while. I’ve missed them heaps, so it’ll be nice to spend some time with them again.
I’ve just broken my diet. haha. I’m eating a small pack of crisps because i’m quite peckish. Oh well, back on the diet tomorrow.
:(
My cousin died two nights ago. All this shit that’s been happening finally got to me. I moved my flight forward, and left for Sydney last night. I’ve decided to appeal for exemption from my exams, but i’m at the point where I don’t care if i end up failing them anyway.
I’ll update some more in the coming days, but for now I’m going to watch some TV with my mum.
Semester’s over!
So my first semester of my second year of uni is OVER. Gah. I don’t think I could have lasted another minute of it. I hated my courses with the passion of a thousand burning suns, and have absolutely no interest in any of them.
My first exam is the 16th of June, and my exam period ends on the 28th. That evening, I’ll be going to the bar at Uni (”Shadows”) with a friend from one of my courses, simply because this semester has sucked more than expected, and we really need a stiff drink. Hah! We had a test on Wednesday for the course we share, and lets just say that it didn’t go down too well.
More Uni stresses, though. I haven’t quite finished an assignment yet. It’s due tomorrow afternoon. I don’t have much to do, just writing out some answers that I already have and making some summaries for it. Hopefully I’ll be able to finish it by the morning.
I had quite a nice afternoon. I tuned into the RadioxShow this afternoon. Elyse was hosting, which was particularly lulzy, and I enjoyed myself. James wasn’t really getting it, and was almost ready to hand over his headphones for me to use. Haha!
my paid posts are going well over at Sewwy.com. Hopefully my payments will start coming through, because money is getting quite tight :( I’m looking forward to being back in Sydney, to be honest… At least I won’t be paying for food! I fly back on the 30th of June, and I can’t wait! I’ll be doing a lot of partying and drinking and fun stuff whilst I’m over there, which I’m really looking forward to. :)
I need to go and apply for second semester courses now. :o!
It’s not the fall that hurts
It’s when you hit the ground
Oyy, what a crazy couple of weeks. I have to say, it’s not been a good semester. With mum being in hospital and the recent news about Granddad, It’s been a whole heap of extra stress on top of my already fairly hectic schedule.
Apparently my Granddad had surgery to place a tube in his throat the other day. It went successfully, but they were able to see just how developed the cancer is: and It’s a lot further along than the doctors thought. Still, he’ll have a few months, which is all we can ask for really. Dad and his siblings are going over to the UK for two weeks in a few days, and it’s possible that Dad might take me and my brother over sometime in July. Not really sure what’s happening yet though. I do know I’ll be heading to Sydney at the end of June, so that will be good.
Eh… Don’t really have much more to say. Will blog again in a day or so :)
Woooo Contests!
My good good friend, Mandapants is holding a contest over at her blog. Essentially, it’s a referral contest: All prizes involve a domain and hosting, first and second prizes include an additional cash prize.
She’s really being quite generous! You should all go and Enter her little competition. All you’ve got to do is make a blog about it, post a link somewhere, and wait until the actual competition starts. :) Easy!
I’ll personally be paying for the cash prizes: $10 for first place, $5 for second - paypal only of course.
KGO AND GET YERSELF DOMAINS, HOSTING AND CASH!
I live in Antarctica.
It appears as if New Zealand has picked itself up and migrated south. Far south. Antarctica south. Auckland is absolutely FREEZING. I don’t think it got warmer than about 12C today. I’ve been sitting in James’s room rugged up, two heaters going… and I’m STILL cold. Hopefully the room warms up properly soon, or I might end up in bed very early just to stay warm!
So, I’ve not really heard any more news on my Granddad. Apparently my dad, aunts and uncles, are going to visit him in a few weeks. It’ll be good for them to see him, but I think it’ll be really hard on them too. :( I feel really sorry for my dad, but so proud of him the way he’s been handling all this stuff the past few weeks.
I’ve spent today studying. I still don’t understand much at all about chemistry, but hopefully the more I read over my notes and do practice questions, the more I’ll get my head around it. I really am looking forward to finishing this semester once and for all. It has most definitely been the semester from hell.
All this uni work and other crap that’s been going on is starting to wear me down. I’ve felt very lonely, and to be honest, quite depressed the last few days. I really hate feeling like this. Nothing seems to get rid of the feeling I get from it at the moment. Spending some time with James makes me feel a little better, but as soon as he goes back to his computer room the feeling comes back and I feel quite empty again. I guess it’s not really helping that I don’t know many people around here, and most of them are quite busy with their own lives. Hopefully I’ll be able to catch up with my friend, Trish, this week.
I think I’m going to start returning comments a lot more nowadays. I used to do it quite religiously years ago, but have gotten quite lazy in the past year. Within the next few days, i’ll start replying to some recent comments, and will keep it up too. :)
Bad News .. :(
I got some bad news this evening. My cousin told me that my Grandad, who lives in the United Kingdom, is dying of throat cancer. He’s been really weak for a few years now, and apparently some recent tests have shown that he has the beginnings of throat cancer. :(
He’s too weak to do Radiotherapy. They’re going to place a tube in his throat so at least he’ll get the summer but … Chances are he won’t live to the end of the year.
The hardest part is that all his family, his children and grandchildren, live in Australia. It will cost an arm and a leg to visit him before he dies, and then we’ll be spending a lot of money on getting to the funeral too.
Don’t get me wrong, we’ve been expecting it for a while, but still, it is a shock to the system… :(
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